best & worst of 2018

Happy new year!! I wanted to look back and reminisce on the past year for all the good and BAD things, because social media is filled lately with everyone listing all the accomplishments they’ve made over the past year which is fantastic and I am so proud of all those people for everything they managed to do in 2018… but I am almost certain that’s not the complete reality of it, and I strive on being honest and true with all of you.

Its wonderful and such an important thing to be proud of yourself because I think that sparks further motivation inside of you, but this world we live in is full of constant comparison. We look at celebrities or someone you know and are upset that we can’t have their body, or that we’re not as pretty as them and its so hard not to compare ourselves. Especially this time of year, because we scroll through our feed and we see someone saying that they got their dream job, bought their dream car, bought the perfect home, got married to a millionare (ok that’s excessive lol no ones seeing that) but all those things causes us to instantly envy them! Which then causes this downward spiral when we then turn to reflect on our life and are like “what the heck am I doing wrong? How come I don’t have those things or what did I do wrong this year to not be so successful.” But I’m sure what were not seeing is that, maybe they’re new car was broken into, or maybe they’re not happy with their life, or they had a family issue arise. But those are things we aren’t showcasing all over social media,  because we just want to highlight our successes. But I think it’s so important to be able to look back, be proud of your accomplishments, but I think its just as important to recognize things that didn’t go so well and look at them as a way to improve because as much as social media makes it seem- none of us are perfect.

And that being said, Ive done a little reflecting of my own. Growing up I feel like we always have that one big influential year where everything happens for us. Looking back 2017 was that year for me, I graduated from college, I bought my Jeep and accomplished a lot. But there were also points in 2017 where I was broken, I lost my vovo, I lost some people who I cherished, and I was forced to grow up a lot.  So when I sat down to start this post I had no idea if I wanted to write this because I didn’t want to sit down and list everything I was blessed enough to do in 2018, but when I sat down I realized that 2018 was a challengeing year and that I needed to take my own advice and think about how I would be able to grow from it. Which just by writing this post- I know that I have because if you asked me to reflect on 2018 in March or April it would have been a very negative post lol…. So here we go! 2018 started off VERY rocky, the brand new Jeep that I had worked so hard to save for and  only a few months old spent a month in the shop with what seemed a never ending issue. As upsetting and frustrating as this was, I am thankful that 1- I never got hurt and 2- that it is perfectly fine now (praise the lord). And I’m a believer that bad things come in three’s, so here’s the next challenge— You all know I’ve been a field hockey coach for 3 years now, and that I love it and those girls more than anything. Even though I’m not playing the sport anymore, I’m so that grateful that I don’t have to experience a life without it. But this past year that wasn’t always a certainty for me. I was told I wouldn’t be able to do it anymore, (which looking back I truly believe that it was a sign from the big Man upstairs to get my little tush moving in the direction that I need to be going in). The “no” I was given, of course, completely broke my heart, but it gave me the strength and confidence to keep my head up, and it’s a feeling that I know I wont forget and it will continue to light that fire within me to chase my dreams. And third… the worst of all- in April we had to put our pup Truro down, And man – they are serious when they say losing an animal is almost as hard as losing a loved one. But I promise no more sadness!!  Because by the end of May (I believe little angel truro guided us to this) we drove to Virginia and picked up little baby Boomer!!! I’m telling you guys, this was the highlight of 2018, for sure!! Our little love bug brightens our days and can turn any sadness into happiness. He does so many things that remind me so much of truro that I just have to believe our furbaby Truro had some help from God with this. Of course our summer vacations are always something we look forward to but this year our annual cape vacation was extra special because the little pup was able to come with us, and then a month later we explored Ponta Delgado, Portugal with the family and my vova which was something that honestly is more special to me than graduating from college (lol sorry mom & dad).  

And Even though I’m not doing what I love, my current job allowed me to make so many memories this year which I am grateful for, ski trips, sports games, and weekend trips to boston. So many memories that I am so grateful for, and so many people in my life that I am blessed to have, so although 2018 wasn’t a year of significant accomplishments, I am thankful for another year to be alive & I cant wait to make my dreams come true in 2019. God bless you all!! And thank you always for reading & supporting me!!!